About Me

I'm Jonathan, a father of 4, husband to an adoring wife, and a web developer in San Antonio, TX. I talk about whatever is on my mind including mental disorders, technology, and politics.

About this site

Clusterfuck : Military term for an operation in which multiple things have gone wrong. Related to "SNAFU" (Situation Normal, All Fucked Up") and "FUBAR" (Fucked Up Beyond All Repair).

I'm not afraid of a depression. I'm afraid of the unknown effects of a depression.

I live paycheck to paycheck. It's what happens when you have a family and get no recognition for real-world knowledge versus really expensive paper.

Having money to cover all the bills is getting to be harder and harder.

Being without doesn't scare me. Watching my children go without does.

It frustrates me. It saddens me. It scares me.

What kind of future will they have to look forward to? What am I leaving them?

So many questions. Not nearly enough answers.

I am but a child trapped in the mind of a man lost in a world of isolation and despair.

There are times in life when everything that can go wrong does. It is in these times that an individual will discover what they are really made of. It is in these times that I find myself.

I am more than just another person. I have sacrificed my dreams to provide for my reality.

Some day, some where, some how.